I Am Ricecake

I don't write here in multiply anymore so here's a link to my latest tumblr post :)

http://iamricecake.tumblr.com/post/346158943/a-post-to-remember

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tagal nadin akong di nagpopost dito... puro facebook na kasi hehe..

here's a new song... first draft... title nito "Sunsets"..

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its sad to see how pain changes things
hearts are buried in lies of defense
and I wake up to this morning light
hoping you'll be the same
its sad to see no name
I don't see your name...

in the sands of time I sink, i think
how it was when hearts were young
in the sands of time I sink asking

will I ever be your sky when the sun rises,
the heart that beats in you?
will I ever be your star til the moon sets
that watches over you?

it pains to see the tears of the past
running down your face
tears not mine that breaks my heart
I can do nothing to erase

in the sands of time I sink, i think
how it was when hearts were young
in the sands of time I sink asking 

will I ever be your sky when the sun rises,
the heart that beats in you?
will I ever be your star til the moon sets
that watches over you?
will I ever make you smile in the daylight,
the way you used to do?
will I ever make your heart beat with the melody,
the way yesterday did to you?

it seems the simplest things that could make me happy
are the things I simply don't deserve...

ok it's been a while since I've posted something here in multiply...

so... updates...

sa wakas nabuo na ng Until August ang first composition entitled "One Night Carousel"..

I wrote this song last year pa.. It's about when you already have that right feeling but it's just not the right time yet.. It's about hoping and waiting for the chains of the past to be broken..

'til someone can be truly and wholly yours..

anyway, here are the words..

The night is fading
and the sky is daunting
The stars hide as their tears fall down on us
Your hands locked in mine,
I look deep into your eyes
as I hear you speak those words

But arms crossed the angels look down on us
Why is it too much to ask?

I'll hold you close in my arms
Feel the warmth of my heart
Share the pain of the past
We'll never fall apart
I'll hold you close and tight
even if it ends tonight
share this endless bliss
a one night carousel ride

As the sun betrays the night
summer skips september
summer skips september
But the life in your smile
and the touch of your lips
they will linger in my sleep

And as you leave I will believe
Remember the words of forever

I'll hold you close in my arms
Feel the warmth of my heart
Share the pain of the past
We'll never fall apart
I'll hold you close and tight
even if it ends tonight
share this endless bliss
a one night carousel ride

I'll wait and breathe for the day when the shadows won't hold you back...
I'll wait and breathe for the day when this carousel will come to life...

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We'll be performing this song for the first time together with 4 other cover songs at Magnet Katipunan on June 6, 9pm..  We'll be the first band on the lineup.

Punta kayo, we would be glad to see you there :)

guess who?



princess who? pipoy?

nagutom ako kaya nagexperiment ulit ako..

grabbed a can of corned beef...

nagbeat ng egg, nilagyan ng basil leaves, black pepper, ground oregano, and salt..

niluto ang corned beef, nilagyan ng knorr toyo at hot sauce.... hinaluan ng cheese.. yum yum..

niluto ang egg sabay lagay ng corned beef.. nasira ang omelette di ko mafold ng maayos haha..

eto ang kinalabasan.. masarap naman hehe...


lasang lasa ung ground oregano hehe.. ok naman yung taste mejo maanghang din kaya sawap :P

mas mabuti natong nagluluto ako kesa nageemo haha control lang sa pagkain dahil ang bochog ko na...

no emo for breakfast, just pure fun :)

isama mo nadin ang 2nd round TKO win ni pacman... PERFECT! :D

gusto kong magsulat pero wala akong masulat.. hindi naman empty ang utak ko, pero it's the complete opposite, punung puno ng thoughts... di ko lang alam pano mailabas isa isa...

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may text ako.. (naexcite)

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2977 lang pala..

basag...

mabuti pa ang globe nagttext...

Eto ang pinakaayaw kong season ng taon dahil pagkahabahaba ng bakasyon pero I'm stuck at home...  Di rin ako makalabas dahil tambak ako ng trabaho ngayon..  I took home work from the office and I've also got bunch of freelance work all over.. But I just can't focus... Hindi nadin ako makasulat ng kanta dahil haluhalo na ang laman ng utak ko.. so I ended up writing another dumb post like this again...

Si B1 at B2...  Si B1 daw ay "smart guy" at si B2 naman ay "dumb guy"... I don't know if I gave them the right associations but let's just leave it like that for now hehe...

Pareho silang mapagmahal na nilalang pero ang pinagkaiba nila ay:

B1, the smart guy, is holding back.  Because he does not want to fall in too deep and drop dead on the ground realizing that he had fallen all alone, or because of all the hardships and pain the he has gone through, he always leaves something for himself and wraps a shell all over his battered heart.  So in this way, he wouldn't have to get hurt when everything falls apart...

on the other hand, B2, the dumb guy, never holds back.  He lets himself to fall in too deep, taking all the risks, not thinking of the consequences and pain that could come his way.  He knows  he could get hurt and be hurt over and over again but despite that and his battered bleeding heart, he still loves with an open heart, giving everything and even more than what he could.  So in this way, he believes, everything wouldn't have to fall apart..

I've always been like B2.. But in some point in time I've also been like B1 dahil tao lang ako at napapagod.. although I always end up being a B2 again..

Atleast, if still in the end things don't work out,  I won't have any regrets and I'll be able to say that I have given everything or died trying..

Siguro nga ganito talaga ako, always going to be a B2..  Minsan lang naiisip ko na sana kaya ko maging B1 so I wouldn't have to lose myself and breakdown during times like these.. wala kasi makapitan, buti nalang at hightech na ngaun at may internet..

takti yan tanghaling tapat ang init init ang emo emo ko... subukan ko na magwork pota... wish me luck..

Ikaw, anu ka, B1 or B2?






"...And I'm thinking of her, she's not thinking of me..." - Firecracker by Four Letter Lie

pakshet...

mahirap na nga kumita ng pera,

mahirap pa maging masaya...

pakshet...

Bakit ang mga gudboys kinukuha agad ni Lord?

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kasi lagi silang nasasaktan mauuna talaga silang mamatay!

nye! :P

Am I supposed to be happy when all I ever wanted comes with a price?!

i wish i could give you smiles
the ones with no goodbyes...

I used to disagree badly with Colt 45's latest TV Ad where in a rocker poser dude answers his phone and says "i miss you" to his girlfriend and then suddenly a - larger than life - sized beer falls down crushing the life out of him.  Then there goes the line that sounds something like "men should act like real men".  Sorry my memory sucks but that's basically the ad's message.  Unfortunately I can't find a video from youtube or anywhere (or I wasn't googling harder enough).

Anyway, my initial reaction when I saw the ad was: "Pucha! so bawal pala mag-I miss you sa mga girlfriends?!"

That was my take on the ad a few months back until I saw it again a while ago...

I realized that if you look at the ad from a different point of view, maybe try to look harder, there's a more sensible meaning into it...

If you look at how the poser dude was talking to her gf and said "i miss you", he was like hiding from everyone else, trying not to get caught and be embarrassed..

Why be shy if you're saying what you truly mean? 
Why hide when you're just expressing what's truly coming from your heart?

Yeah, no doubt, the guy from the ad deserves to get crushed.  He is nothing more than a loser.

If you're going to do (or say) anything, say it out clearly and with pride.  Stand up for it because you believe in it.  And I think that's what real men do.

just my two cents :)

Got from http://www.stwing.upenn.edu/~jenf/writing/rant04.html

Thanks Dwight for sharing this..

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Ode to the Nice Guys
This rant was written for the Wharton Undergraduate Journal

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Fu-zu Jen, SEAS/WH, 2003

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Hmmm.. I guess, nice guys finish last but bad guys don't finish at all... ;)

2009 na! bagong taon na bagong buhay na! sana...

my new year targets:

1. finally get a hold of my dream PnS LX3
2. finish the web jabber messenger then...
     get a new job (ok this was a joke but jokes are half meant :P)
3. buy my very own electric guitar.. GAX30... weeeeeeee
4. apply test driven development on my projects..
5. put up my developer blog, and play around with more bleeding edge stuff
6. be NOT single anymore :P
7. grab a ring flash for my holga
8. find a way not to be so emo although emo nako paggising ko palang kanina :P
9. less inom, more workout, get healthier and fit..
10. magcompose pa ng maraming kanta
11. masterin ang gitara at keys
12. masterin din ang pagluluto
13. matutong lumangoy :P
14. magtipid para makaipon ng pambili sa mga targets ko d2 :P

vacation should be a good thing... well, how come i can't see that applying to me?  It's weird kasi pag nasa office ako sobrang gustung gusto ko na magvacation pero ngaun nagbabakasyon nako eh parang mas ok pang pumasok nalang sa office...

sucks to spend your vacation alone at home with your laftaf (laptop) and a lot of left over beers in your frige...

here's what you get, a senseless post...

Heineken... lanyang beer to pagkamahal mahal di naman pala pagkasarap-sarap....

mas masarap pa yung super dry pesteng yawa yan!

I'm thinking 'bout lot of things but I don't know what I'm thinking about... whatever.. Iost..

uhm don't get the wrong idea I'm neither drunk nor may amats kc dalawang beer palang naiinom ko... sobrang bagot lang ako dahil 2:15am na eh gising padin ako pero tulog na lahat.. tangineners yan....

walang magawa sa bakasyon na to.. i wish i could have stayed longer in baguio pero as for now i could only go as far as wishing..

thoughts... thoughts... daming thoughts... walang makausap... hmmm..

lapit na magpasko, ilang araw nalang potek di ko nmn feel na darating na... and pansin ko lang ang daming sawi ngaun sa panahon na to... sawi financially, physically, and emotionally... daming emo, isama nyo nako dun :P

I was trying to write a new song with my own measly guitar skills... no luck..i still suck..

shit I'm really trying to enjoy and focus on things that would make me somehow productive pero I can't....well atleast nakapagluto ako ng Nasi Goreng last sunday.. well I did that kasi gusto ko lang magreminisce din..

kainis.. inlababo kasi... mahirap talaga pag inlababo ka... ive fallen, and continously falling deeper... yep, i am so in love with this girl but i can not disclose her name so itago nalang natin sya sa pangalang "Che"...

She's simple, sweet, caring, and loving in her very own special way.. dang! i love her eyes and her smile.. i love her just the way she is.. youve got to meet her, youll never have a dull moment with her...

potek namiss ko tuloy lalo...

brb kuha lang ako another can of redhorse...

back.. salamat nalang at may multiply.. malaya akong nakakapagsulat ng mga kung anu anong mga bagay na lumalabas sa utak ko..

hmmm ano pa ba.... nagpapaantok nalang ako d2 para makatulog nalang din... ang labo sa office lagi akong inaantok pero ngayong gusto ko nang matulog ayaw naman ako antukin... bwiset...

ayan nagbukas ako ng new tab nagpunta sa bpiexpressonline.com at naglogin.. umaasang may surpresa na may bonus... ASANESS TO THE MAX!!!!!!!

oh well.. mahirap talaga umasa dahil masasaktan ka lang...

wala nako maisulat na matino.. so better end this here before it gets worse...

signing off..


CIAO...